Lost and Found in Chaos.....

I haven't written for 18 months and quite a bit of history has happened since then. I'm not sure why I stopped writing but I recall making a statement to a friend . It went something like this," I don't feel like being nice, or having gratitude, or being kind right now.!" She commented, "I think you should write about that. I think other people are feeling like that." But I didn't write about my angry, uncomfortable feelings, instead, I went on a self-discovery expedition.  A literal journey to my inner self. A journey to learn about myself, to dissect myself and what makes me tick. A journey to learn how I want to be and how I want to live. Don't get me wrong. It's not like I haven't led an absolutely wonderful, satisfying, beautiful life....but I kind of yearned for something and I wasn't quite sure what it was. I really didn't share this little slice of myself with anyone. I dropped little bread crumbs along the way but it's difficult to explain that your searching for something and you don't know what it is. It's not only confusing for the searcher but as well for the tribe. Many things have happened along the way, The election process, campaigning, and ending inauguration of the new President most likely stopped me in my tracks with not wanting to be nice, kind or grateful at the time. Nine months later, my father died which left a profound emotional impact and then I went to India (which I had been thinking about for the past 2 years.) My journey to India was a spiritual feast for all my senses. I will always have a piece of Rishikesh, India in my heart. I feel compelled to write again.....Namaste, Queenyj