In my last blog, at least one month ago, I shared a story of my friend being present for her mother. I then made an intention to be present. I have to say that I have been practicing "being present" since that intention and have never felt happier. Yes...I still get cranky....angry...irritated...sometimes scattered...I am human after all. However, I don't feel like I am missing something. I don't feel harried, rushed or stressed out! I feel organized and move through each day with a sense of calm and purpose. When I have multiple tasks or events in one day, I have been writing them on little post-its and placing on my desk. Okay, I know that might sound corny, weird , nerdy or slightly compulsive but it has to do more with "not forgetting" and organizing. Some people keep dates on their phones or computers, some still write on paper calendars, I just started this little ritual and it works for me...I like it. It makes me smile when I see the little post-its and read the days events and then I cross them off and eventually throw away the post-it. (I've always been a list maker) I don't necessarily have a post it for each day and I don't know how this recent ritual has evolved ...but I like it. Does it have anything to do with being present or helping me to be present? I don't know. What I do know is that when I am engaged in a task, or at work, or talking with someone, or reading, or teaching...I am present. I am not thinking about anything else. I am clearly in the moment. Just like I encourage my students to be. Just like I encourage my patients to be. Just like I suggested to my dearest sister to be. I think that is why I have forgotten about my blog. I actually thought about writing the other day and told myself I better get on it. I wrote it on a post-it. Then I started questioning the importance and validity of my blog. I began to evaluate it's importance in my life and for that matter...in anyone's life. Hmmm...why am I writing...what do I have to say...why am I saying it???? I'm not sure but I like to write and I'm not going to place pressure on myself to "have to write once a week, or daily or at all for that matter.!" I started this blog as a means of communicating the joy and passion yoga has given me. To share information and insights. To perhaps, entice, excite and engage another person into this beautiful practice of yoga. As I continue to practice and teach, I am starting to experience the subtle (and sometimes not so subtle) shifts that happen with that practice. At times, instead of reading one of my latest books stacked by my bed, I reach for Pantanjalis yoga sutras and randomly open a page. I recognize that I am trying to live out and practice several sutras and my thoughts and behaviors are really changing. Some old patterns are shifting...peeling off and being replaced by new ones. I stop myself when I begin to engage in ridiculous gossip, I think about what I am choosing to eat and purchase at the grocery store. I notice that I can choose to react or not respond. I am stopping and thinking before I speak or act (well..okay...this will be a long transformation!!! Let's get real...anyone who has ever known me, knows that I have a big mouth with enough opinions to go around) CHANGE feels so good. People around me tell me they notice I'm different. Some of my work colleagues stated that I'm not as fun as I used to be since I have been "namasteying!" Their words...not mine! I started laughing and snuck out a little "old queeny" just to share a laugh. I'm here now...present ...and that is all that matters.
I am a gal on a journey to teach the wonderful practice of yoga. I